Hi Glasgow!

Hi Glasgow!❤🦆🍃💫

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It's been 4 days since I arrived at Glasgow. I'll be here for IISMA program as a part of my 7th semester of learning, exactly at the University of Strathclyde. So far, I don't see much internal adjustment that I need to enable in this new environment other than the new approach to learning and studying. Any other thing outside the academic life, like daily living, is basically the same since I've been living alone in Depok for quite some time. It's been a dream of mine to study abroad, and now that I've fulfilled it I simply lose its specialty which I don't actually understand why. Maybe I am unaware that part of me is still adapting and trying to grasp the moment that I'm currently and will be experiencing right now and for the next 3 months. I recognized myself during this time would possibly get stuck in the moment, not in a 'awaken' state but rather in a 'zoning out' mode. It doesn't necessarily mean that I am fully unaware, but it might appear like it doesn't affect my inner self at any significant point. But that may mean that it is the way I see things, maybe it says a lot about how I process changes and how long will it take for me to understand what I really feel and what implications it may have for me and my surroundings.

I actually didn't want it to get wrestled like that in the beginning, but I think I'll just let my writing become who I am when I really talk.

I noticed people really don't bother with the climate here. They are wearing shirts that show skin and I once saw someone wearing tank tops and many people wear shorts. This makes me feel like I am overreacting to the weather, while it's normal to wear suitable clothing like layered clothing and fuzzy jackets I still feel a bit off-put to wear that around people who don't. But then again, it's me we're talking about so it's probably just anxiety and lack of confidence :( (well I'll get back to it later)

My timetable is out, and it's quite packed with classes though there are still many spaces for agendas, I don't think I'll have much time to take a look at the sky and touch the grass because the courses came with tutorial schedules too. I am feeling a bit lost at the moment, I need to shift my approach in terms of studying here. Lots to review, lots to read, and of course, the most nerving is lots of mingling (which I am not so good at)

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my room, 6 PM

But at the end of the day, people here will shape me into another version, I can't say the best because who set the bar? And though one's environment right now seems to be at the peak point I don't really think it would necessarily mean it would bring out the best in a person. Everyone is different, and I am certainly part of 'everyone'. Not to sound ungrateful, but I rather be ambitious about what I can do to maximize the opportunity that has been given to me here than be so glamorized by it. 

spotted a gull tap-dancing on the grass outside my room🐦💚🌳

All that said, I do hope things will work out well for me here, and for that I should let new people and new experiences (good or bad) come to me, just let myself seep and absorb new perspectives for unknown developments out there. Come to think of it, it's not actually my place to impose certain reactions I am having right now. Being like this may be the real and the most genuine reaction I could react to most comfortably. So, from now on in Glasgow, I wish that I'll be just who I am and not be forced to do something and be too hard on myself. I'll just live.

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Love and choco,

Sekar